So I got up this morning feeling “eh”. I was able to make Youngest her sandwich, but started feeling light headed and nauseous so I stretched out in my recliner. I went back to sleep when she left for school.
Waking Up With Energy
So this is something I haven’t done since before the vertigo hit back in June. I have struggled with it for the last several months. It has been:
- Frustrating because I can’t do much of anything.
- Frightening because I don’t know how long it is going to last.
- Good because it has forced me to let Youngest grow up.
Today, however, I woke up feeling energized, motivated, and (most importantly) WITHOUT vertigo.
Guess What I Did?!
For the first time in months I was able to go out by myself. I drove my car to Costco and
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put gas in the tank
- picked up prescriptions
- got a few groceries
- drove home
I was even able to bring the groceries into the house!
Dangerous Time
This is when I usually get myself into trouble. I’m feeling good so I want to do everything I haven’t been able to.
Definitely NOT a good idea. So I put only the cold groceries away. I filled my water bottle and sat down to rest.
I have bags of groceries to put away, but they sit on the floor of my dining room until after I rest or Youngest gets home from school.
I can live with this.
I have two loads of unfolded clean laundry in my room waiting for me.
I can live with this.
Instead of making cookies (it is Tuesday after all) I took some cookie dough that I made out of the freezer.
I can live with this.
My obsessive-compulsive, perfectionist, over-achieving mind is frustrated and screaming.
I can live with this.
I Would Rather….
It is better to go slowly and enjoy what little I can do rather than doing so much I put myself down again.
Learning to slow down and enjoy the moment is difficult for me. It is also a new and rewarding experience.
I am going to sit back and revel in what I was able to do today. I am not going to stress over what I cannot do.
It’s better this way.
MyOxisaMoron 