I Had A Great Day!

So I got up this morning feeling “eh”.  I was able to make Youngest her sandwich, but started feeling light headed and nauseous so I stretched out in my recliner.  I went back to sleep when she left for school.

Waking Up With Energy

So this is something I haven’t done since before the vertigo hit back in June.  I have struggled with it for the last several months.  It has been:

  1. Frustrating because I can’t do much of anything.
  2. Frightening because I don’t know how long it is going to last.
  3. Good because it has forced me to let Youngest grow up.

Today, however, I woke up feeling energized, motivated, and (most importantly) WITHOUT vertigo.

Guess What I Did?!

For the first time in months I was able to go out by myself.  I drove my car to Costco and

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    Photo by Hassan OUAJBIR

    put gas in the tank

  • picked up prescriptions
  • got a few groceries
  • drove home

I was even able to bring the groceries into the house!

Dangerous Time

This is when I usually get myself into trouble.  I’m feeling good so I want to do everything I haven’t been able to.

Definitely NOT a good idea.  So I put only the cold groceries away.  I filled my water bottle and sat down to rest.

I have bags of groceries to put away, but they sit on the floor of my dining room until after I rest or Youngest gets home from school.

I can live with this.

I have two loads of unfolded clean laundry in my room waiting for me.

I can live with this.

Instead of making cookies (it is Tuesday after all) I took some cookie dough that I made out of the freezer.

I can live with this.

Brain WorkoutMy obsessive-compulsive, perfectionist, over-achieving mind is frustrated and screaming.

I can live with this.

I Would Rather….

It is better to go slowly and enjoy what little I can do rather than doing so much I put myself down again.

Learning to slow down and enjoy the moment is difficult for me.  It is also a new and rewarding experience.

I am going to sit back and revel in what I was able to do today.  I am not going to stress over what I cannot do.

It’s better this way.