I’m sorry that I haven’t been around much to write, I seem to have hit a large group of damaged files.

Brain Mold

Basements + flooding + water damage = MOLD

Having spent 17 years trying to stay busy enough to not deal with all the crap and pain I’ve endured in my life I have done a great job of locking it all in the basement.  The problem with that is that it has started to mold causing me serious health issues.  Aside from the depression and anxiety I have been struggling with fatigue, nausea, memory loss and other nondescript health issues.

Pain & Exhaustion

Cleaning out a garage, basement or other large and dirty storage area is exhausting.  Shifting and moving heavy objects can often cause strained and sore muscles.  Mucking out my mental basement is causing similar reactions.

I have been struggling with chest pains, severe fatigue, crying, head aches, agitation and insomnia.  While I have been taking time to take my daughter to the water park an overnight camp out and the zoo, I haven’t had the energy for much else.  To be honest, I didn’t really have the energy for that either.

When I am not doing things with my daughter, I’m usually just stretched out in my recliner trying to stay awake.  If I take a nap I’m up all night.  If I don’t take a nap I’m physically ill and still can’t get to sleep until midnight or later.

Needless to say, I haven’t had the wherewithal to write.  I just wanted to check in and give you all an update on the defragging process.  I never thought it would feel like someone pulling slivers of glass out of my brain and my heart.

On a Happier Note

My birthday is in a couple of days and I’m going to celebrate with chocolate, a movie with family and lots of laughter.

I invite you to celebrate with me.  Cause a little trouble, have a lot of fun and laugh until it hurts.